Okay so I lost my mojo there for a few weeks but things have been insane.
Its the busiest time of my year workwise for me, my son turned 18 and into a MAN overnight it seems, I turned another year older which pisses me off no end and I think I'm in a relationship of which I don't want to admit to... or be in. Dammit!
It started out all fun and games ... yeah yeah until someone loses an eye... and cries about it. I'm so philosophical its freakin scary. You'd think in my older wiser incredibly intelligent years because I've done it all seen it all that I would not get myself into a situation that makes me cringe. So sad but true...
Where does that come from? Now I'm stuck in this "oh golly gee I really should get the hell out of here before I am driven nuts" and I've had enough years of being driven nuts by people I should never have associated with in the first place! Its like the perverbial flies to poo... and there I am sitting like a cherry on top of a stinking mass.
Okay so its my own fault. I felt sorry for someone. I try to help people and try to make them feel good about themselves then all of a sudden I'm caught in this trap of "Oh crap. Now I'm screwed" in making them happy I am setting them up for destruction. How egotistical is that? When did I transform into this heinous creature of pain? Buggered if I know.
Oh and I crashed my truck today to just to shaft it further up the sore side. Couldn't be helped really... just one of those wrong place wrong time moments. Gutted.
Okay well despite that I'm actually having a blast - looking forward to a break and should really do something about putting up a Christmas tree but I figure with all the neighbours plugging 50,000 watts of twinkle bulbs in to make their house look like a red light district why bother? I'll just keep the curtains open and be blinded by the light.
On that note I shall go to bed... see all of you fans later. (echo echo)
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